Blog Jump Start Week 1

I am wanting to get back into the habit of blogging more regularly. So, I am linking up with Donna's Blog Jump Start! This week's topic is "Why Do You Write?" I have always found reading and writing fascinating ever since I was a child. You could usually find me in my room or on a papasan chair at my aunt's house reading a book while my cousins would be gallivanting around the neighborhood at night while our parents played cards. Being transported to another place or reading another's thoughts connected me with a world bigger than myself. It could be compared to someone's very first experience of God. Not to say that books are like God at all it is just a small comparison.

I found comfort and understanding in reading so I slowly began to write myself. I started writing a book when I was sixteen about a young girl with cancer. I know, I am so melancholic. I also wrote some poetry and even got the nerve to share one with my high school's literary anthology. I disliked sharing my writing and sometimes still do because it is so intimate to write and vulnerable to share it.

I started this blog back in 2009 to keep in touch with friends that were far away. When we started dealing with infertility I stopped writing because I felt I had nothing but gloom to write. Then a couple years later I picked it back up again after we had our miscarriage. I guess I just needed to write out my thoughts, feelings and musing in order to feel heard. I did not need to feel heard by the world but I needed to hear me. Then I noticed people were finding comfort in my blog and discovering compassion for those carrying the cross of infertility so I continued writing.

I have also found so much support and friendship in this blogging community although it seems to be getting much smaller nowadays. I have noticed that as people are choosing a quicker more "convenient" lifestyle they are reading blogs less and just checking FB or Insta. I guess a reason I write is to conserve a slower paced lifestyle as much as possible. So, people actually have to read what I write with very little promise of pictures to go with it.

I write because I love it really. I love typing the keys as my thoughts come to life and I can articulate what I feel and think. It is a powerful feeling. Maybe someday I will finish that book and write a few more...