So, I have been avoiding writing about Lent mainly because I don't want to be in Lent yet! But, alas the liturgical year does not revolve around me. I have had a really hard time the last couple of years figuring out what to sacrifice because a lot of my life already feels lenten. Last night JJ and I were wondering what to do for Lent together and we could not really come up with much.
You see when you are dealing with IF the spirit of Lent never really leaves you. There is a constant reminder of your deep wounds and your need for God's grace. You constantly cling to this cross that you do not want yet you know was meant for you. Yes, we all have our crosses in life but the cross of IF is a heavy one. It is one that I would not wish on anyone. Wounds are made and scars are reopened constantly and just when you think you are healed another piercing that you did not even know was possible has emerged. It is a humiliating cross to have and soon you begin to realize that the only one who understands is Christ himself. Christ who suffered much more than any of us becomes our perfect solace.
This lovely lady whose blog is conveniently called This Cross I Embrace wrote a wonderful reflection on Lent, the Stations of the Cross and infertility. She explains things much more eloquently than I can, so go read her reflection.
So after thinking about this for weeks I decided what I am going to do for Lent this year. JJ and I decided that we are going to not watch any television on Sundays before Mass so that we can better prepare ourselves for Mass and we will be going to a weekly holy hour together. I did not give up any food items because if I give up anymore food groups I won't be eating very much. I am not giving up blogging but I am going to try and spend less time on them. I am not saying what I am doing for Lent because I don't really think it is necessary. Know that you will all be in my prayers this Lent and I pray that we all have a fruitful Lent!